KIND OF FEELINGS

how reality is this society.
i dunno wht place am i in now act.
i'm really quite blur.
my working is full of rumors.
everyday anytime,there'll be rumors coming out from here and ther.
bout him and bout her.
sigh. this second you might be talking bout this one with who and who and next second you might be the one who is being critic behind you.
wat a scary matter.
i dun like such things at all.
why like tht,it like so dangerous working ther you know?
suddenly you'll be the one they like.
suddenly you'll be the one they dislike.
why must we live the way ppl want us to be?
why cant we juz be ourselves?
when you're like tht,ppl dun like and say this and tht to you.
wat the hell now.
i dun live to listen to all of you.
i dun live to live for you all.
i juz live for myself isn't?
why must i pretend to like it because you like it?
why must i pretend to dislike it because you dislike it?
wat's the meaning of life then?
is meaningless i tel you!
this world is so unfair.
reall unfair.
but who cares?
nobody cares and yet i wont bother so much too.
everyday i juz need to wear a mask to work and tht's all.
as i do my part well tht's my job.
the relationship between everyone is so complicated.
you won't know wat they are thinking most of the time.
why must we juz following ppl's shadow?
can't we juz hav our way to go?
i juz dun understand.
being myself is a wrong one.
but being the one you all want is the right one.
then who can answer me,wht for my mum giv birth to me?
poor thing.
breathless in the air.

SOMETIMES.

sometimes i'm juz wondering.
wht we are actually.
we don't looks like couple in the public.
we don't hold hands in public.
we don't hav sweet action in public.
and we are juz like frenz in public.
who knows wat we are.
juz 2 of us.
not tht saying to inform the whole world tht we're couple.
but ther should also be sumthing repesenting us isn't it?
wht's the meaning being together?
i juz dun understand why you hav to mind how ppl see and how ppl think so much.
is juz our own business.
as long as we're happy tht's alr enough.
and do you know your actions are hurting me badly sometimes.
couple should make each other happy.
2 person getting together tht's only y we're calling thm a couple.
is not one person's matter but is 2.
Understanding, accepting, forgiving.
this 2 majors things tht a couple should have.
but which one we're doing it correctly?
sometimes you juz make me feels tht tht's not love between 2 of us anymore.
i'm juz wondering wht we 're sometimes.
everything juz last for sometimes perhaps.