感触

坐着坐着，下起倾盆大雨了。
看着熟悉的雨滴
突然很怀念当初和朋友们的疯狂傻事。
下雨时的我们特别好动！
跑步，打球，比赛投篮等等。
淋得像落汤鸡的我们易燃还是会傻乎乎地笑著！
很多事情过了就是过了，那只能是时不时可以拿来回想一下的画面。
再也不能回到过去，再也不会有这个机会了。
因为现在大家都只一个人过。
新的环境，新的朋友。
也许再次相聚，也只会是沉默和陌生！
甚至会是尴尬的场面。
想着想着，自己也改变了许多，
待人处事的态度也不在像以前那样执著和固执。
以前犯下了许多错误，自己也失去了很多。
也许人长大以后，思想也会渐渐变得成熟。
不再会有天真的想法，相信所谓的奇迹。
做人也会变得更脚踏实地。
每一个决定都必须得考虑清楚，
并不是你要就可以做，不相想做就可已不要！
在现实的社会里，你不再是一只受保护的动物。
你只会变成一个一文不值的猎物！
办事的地方就像后宫一样的恐怖！
这一刻可以同台吃饭，下一刻就会被好人给陷害。
拖出去砍头！
人往往就是那么的现实，
只会为了自己的利益着想，也许这才是对的想法！
你处处为他人提心吊胆，那就是可耻，愚蠢的思想。
做人要学会一时拉紧一时放松，
不然第一个崩溃倒下的人会是自己。

Rejected!

Although this had happened months ago.
But now only i got the feeling of posting it out.
I had rejected 2 promotion offers.
A very very good offer.
I dunno whether i'm doing wrongly or correctly.
I really felt damn tired, facing every lil thing of all of them.
I hate the situation and i even hate the people involved in it.
Every people have their own ability
These ability helps us to climb higher in the reality society
And u must hav confidence on it too.
Bitchy stuffs never comes to a good ending.
And you'll ruin everything in ur future by urself.
People can see ur potential through every lil thing that u do.
But why not my management is doing in this way?
I really don't understand what is in their fucked up mind.
I'm really fedup on everything.
Don't force me to leave without a word.

Back to my condition now. I juz feel tat everyone can juz leave me wihout considering anything.
But me? Becoz of u i try to find out thousands excuses for myself to reject once and once.
Now back to you?
I know wat's in ur mind.
I know u hope to leave.
I know u really hope to go home.
I cant blame u for anything.
Cause decision alw falls on ur own.
I wont regret for giving up anythings.
But i really hope tat u wont leave us so soon.
Words left unsaid, things left undeed.
I know if she's stil here u'll definitely stay for another year.
But unfortunately she's not here.
I hate u. Sometimes i really hates u. I even hate myself for being so stupid.
But i know everything tat i do is worth!
This shit company wil never ever appreciate their staffs.
If u wan someone to stay for u, show them ur sincerity!
U're not doing and yet u're stil demanding.
Wat u aspect?! Dick head!

Back to you, my beloved.
U said tat girls must be with boys.
I get stunt becoz of ur words!
I mind it!
I feel tat i dun really understand u and i dun really know wat the hell u're thinking.
Maybe i'm in the wrong way of judging u.
But i just feel tat u're selfish enough.
I dunno why i'll have such thinking, but i juz feel tat.
Every lil thing tat u said i'll really think twice.
And i really hope tat u wont hurt me so badly one day.
I wont blame u for doing anything.
I wont blame u for leaving me alone one day.
But i juz hope tat u'll be honest to me.
U said tat i cant leave u before u leave me.
This quote brings me lots of thinkings.
U are really selfish enough.
Is it a rely or stil a love quote?

coming soon

tetsu's family is goin to break up very very soon.
in less than two weeks time.
everything happened in a sudden and juz like tat.
everybody is goin to another better place to continue their career.
they are changing and we are accpeting as well.
who wont choose to go for a better one?
nobody is tat stupid.
i wish them luck as well.
cause everybody is goin to leave and they hav to go to a new environment too.
meeting new ppl.doing new things and facing a new diff place and environment.
and of course a new BOSS.
we might see the pros and cons on them too.
btw,juz good luck.
i'll miss all of them.
we used to be frenz and we get to chat whatever topic we wants to.
although sometime there wil be some misunderstanding in the operation time.
but everything had pass and it is juz a past.
i'll be leaving soon too,to a new place.
new environment,new concept,and also a diff cuisine for me to learn sumthing new.
i hope tat it wil be a good career path for me.
and of course i'll do my very best on everything.
xiao liu is the only one who is not leaving.
pity and lonely.
feel sad bout it too but ntg to do.
everyone is goin for their future and at least we had to made some changes to what we are having now.
is impossible to run on the spot for long term.
sigh.everything wil just end up in the next coming week.
we wil meet whatever we will.
juz tel yourself tat u're able to take this callenge.
dun not giv up easily.
do your best and nothing can beat u down!!
cheer and chill everybody!!

somtimes i'll think.
why am i here.
why i'll be in the f&b line.
should i change to another line?
this is a very confusing question!!
not easy to change.
not easy to put.
not easy to get.
sigh...what i really want?
if i'm not in f&b line.
i cant get a high salary.
but if i'm in the office line.
i can hav much time.
and i need not be so tiring.
more time to accompany you.
more time to be with you.
this is what i hope.
but getting a low salary cant enjoy too much.
what can i do?
what can i get.
and what should i do?
think properly.
half year time for me to think about it.
no matter how.
i hav to get the bonus for this year first.
=( arrrrggghhh!!!!
i need frenz!!
i need beer!!
i need club!!
i need music!!
all i need is all my kaki!!
help me!! let's go play!!!!






I REALLY MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!! =!

Finally

finally i'm back to tetsu.
Is a heaven.
I found back my working mood.
I found back my spirit.
Working wit ppl tat you like is really a good matter.
At least you dun need to wear a mark everyday.
Pretending and acting.
Is really tired to be like tat.
I'm really happy now!!
=)
I love all of them here.
Really!

Fedup! Confused!

Awh! Is almost one month I’m staying at this fuck up place!
The so cal mini restaurant named BLACK RAMEN powered by food junction inside the
FOOD COURT!
Initially I dint say anything.
Jason just assigned me here once I finished my CNY leave.
Okay fine! I got ntg to say but just to do it.
If not what can I do.
At first I thought that I have no chance to go back tetsu anymore due to crystal also.
Damn fucking down. I drink and get drunk on the street after my work.
I really can’t accept the fact.
From a restaurant to a food court.
What damn feeling I should have I really dunno.
I just feel damn fucking down because I had been dumped out from tetsu's family.
I thought of many things and reason why me.
I join black ramen and I’m the one who can in charge over here.
Many things I need to follow up and go through.
Staffs that I need to drill up.
Staffs that I need to tolerate!
All these stress had made me gone crazy.
I’m superb duperb tired.
Mentally tired, heart tired.
Everyday I’m just waiting for the TOP to give me sumthing to prove that act they appreciate me much.
Show me their sincerity and I’ll do sumthing for them.
But I aspect from them air made my heart die one more time.
For the days, what I had gone through I said nag and I complain no words on it.
How come they just throw me one fuck package to me and aspect that I’ll accept?
FUCK YOU. Additional of $160, you wan me to work for 10hours?
Is impossible! Dun you guys feel PAISEH of how you treat people?
Kelvin khoo!! I air see through your patent!
Dun tries to act in front of me anymore.
You and nizam also the same!
Dun makes me do things that I dun wan to do.
Dun force me!!
You can’t even pay 1.5 to me and what u aspect from me?
Thought I’m from china? Like those PRC?
Don’t be so silly.
I’m a diploma student.
Dun humiliates me like that!
With just 1.3 you can hired me back is your treasure.
Wan me to pick up this shit? No prob.
Just pay me and show me your sincerity.
As a general f&b manager why u'll do such shit things out?
Hired a PRC who knows ntg with a 1.8k salary.
SIAO LIAO a you!!! Crazy dog!!!
If you feel so hard to adjust my payment? Is fine!
Just let me go back to tetsu with my current pay.
I dint request things much.
Just a clear picture.
Wat’s so hard for you?
Some kind of biatch just wants to resign and you can simply stay her for adding her salary?!!
What qualification that she have? Please la!!
Use your brain to think properly before you do any single things to your staffs.
Do think of other who is useful and really smart ones.
Things that you did had already made us feel fed up to you.
Things that is totally unfair and sucks lit up our anger.
You are disqualified to be a general manager cause u never uses your brain at all.

Diff feelings

wau!!
is been almost more than 3months here.
is so free and so so so enjoy.
especially when i move to my new house.
get more privacy and get freedom.
no need to bother anyone in the house.
good! at least they are not tht busybody like the last time one.
is juz like goin back to my kampar life.
baby,staying with you is juz an ejoyable moment for me everyday.
is juz like husband and wife.
although our working hour is not the same.
and even our off day cant be the same.
but once we finish work everyday,we'll juz rush back.
is juz becoz we juz miss each other.
everyday every moment.

life really change a lot whn we move to our new house.
last time, whn we go out or go shopping.
we dun use to hold hands.
we dun use to do sumthing sweet in the public.
i'm really so happy tht nowadays whn we're out from house.
you'll automatically hold my hands
and whn we hav to say goodbye to each other,we'll hav a goodbye kiss.
ENJOY! enjoy everything!

the only problem i used to worried is how am i goin to act myself whn i go back to home.
mummy's pressure is chasing me crazy!!
i can't do anything but juz hoping that she'll stop forcing me one day.
i hope to go home, but once i think bout this prob i'll refuse to go home.
how much i hope to shout it out in the public.
how much i hope to shout it out in my big family.
so that all of you wil stop asking me some nonsense question.
so tht all of you wil stop suspecting me this and tht.
this is the only thing i hope to do in my life.
is a desired wish for me.

Getting branded stuffs from top to toe is my next target!
haha.i'm goin to make it all done in singapore!

dun forget to smile everyday in the morning.
is not tht whn you happy you wil smile.
is whn you smile it makes you feel happy all day long.
cheer~!!

STAY TOUGH KITZ!